“God, I need to see you working. Without you, I feel so alone. I know you are working in the background, but I can’t see you, nor feel or hear you, and I desperately need to keep walking. God, my faith is growing weak, and my soul is depleted. How much longer, God?"
This month has been tough. I feel exceptionally drained and weak as I continue to try and walk obediently in God’s calling for my life. It is crystal clear that He is, indeed, calling me somewhere - but where that somewhere is, I don’t have a clue.
I don’t do well with waiting and not knowing. I’m an instant gratification type-of-gal. If God has a plan for me, then tell me what it is so I can get on with it! I’m ready to run. I just need to know in what direction.
Despite a ready heart, God is asking me to hold tight. And so, reluctantly, I wait even though I’m not particularly fond of doing so.
Is waiting hard for you? Are you also waiting on God to answer a prayer or to show you His path for your life?
As I spilled out my frustrations and worries to God on that quiet, cold winter morning, my heart laid heavy. His timeline seemed forever, and His silence was deafening.
And then, it happened - that very same day. God gave me the smallest glimpse of hope. Nothing radical or life-changing, but a glimmer nonetheless.
I got a God deposit.
Even though the glimmer of hope I received had nothing to do with the “answer” I was seeking, it gave my weary soul the encouragement it needed to keep trusting and walking.
God knew I needed something to hold on to, to regain my strength and hope, and He provided.
For the first time in quite some time, God gave me spiritual eyes to see. These eyes revealed a God who has been at work. Unfortunately, I’ve been so self-focused that I have not been able to see Him.
A valuable lesson was learned that day. I understood that God works in His way, not mine. My role is less about understanding when ”the” answer will be provided, and more around trusting that every God deposit is Him working to accomplish a higher goal; one that you and I are not privileged to see.
Tony Evans, in his Pathways Bible Study, was quoted in saying, “You don’t have to see the destination when you set out on your journey. You just have to know the One who can.”
Friends, if you are waiting on God like I am, I encourage you through this verse:
“For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end - it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” (Habakkuk 2:3)
Waiting is tough, but as you wait, remember to:
Praying you through,
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